0069. Keeping it together

Nerfer (my best friend in the world) just called me and asked how I do it. How do I get out of bed every day and not sleep through the alarm. How do I keep going to school every day? How do I deal with the crazy family and people I don't like at clinic.... and I didn't have an answer for her because I don't know.

I feel like a machine. I just do what I have to do to get by so that I don't lay in my bed like a goddamned vegetable and fall the fuck apart which is what I really want to do.

But my daughter depends on me. My husband depends on me. My parents depend on me. My classmates depend on me. My teachers depend on me (to make good grades). My patients depend on me. My crit partner depends on me. My MKR readers depend on me. My MKR reviewers depend on me. My goddamn characters depend on me. I can't fall apart. I CAN'T.

0068. 5 good things day 6

5 good things from today:

1. Had a quiz in class. Pretty sure I rocked it.
2. Got to spend time with my mommy today and help her pick out her precious baby puppy.
3. Talked to my BFFFF Jennifer.
4. Had my first cup of coffee since January 14th and it was DELICIOUS.
5. Got to see my bestie Kayla at school!

(I have more than one bestie. Yes, it's possible.)

0067. 5 good things day 5

5 Good Things.

1. I woke up late but still got to clinical early. 
2. I was SUPER BUSY at clinical but had some really awesome patients & learned a lot.
3. I had a grilled chicken salad with raspberry vinaigrette for lunch and was surprisingly full.
4. I walked almost 3 miles today!
5. Got some work done on my job and lining up stuff for the blog.

0066. 5 good things day 4

5 good things that happened today:

1. I got to spend the day with PK
2. I managed to finish reading a book
3. I started reading another
4. We have a fridge full of food
5. I GOT MY FIRST CONTRACT!

0065. 5 good things day 3

5 good things that happened today:

1. I had a good day at clinicals
2. Monkey and I went for a 30 minute walk around the neighborhood (got all the way to Kroger!)
3. I continued that walk by jogging for the first time in YEARS
4. Eclipse is on TV and PK isn't home yet
5. I'm in a good mood

0064. 5 good things day 2

5 good things that happened today:

1. I woke up to kisses from my little girl.
2. I got to have a conversation with one of my favorite authors (fangirl giddiness ensued)
3. I had a decent day in class, despite not wanting to be there.
4. My laundry is almost done! 2 more loads...
5. Dinner came out tasty... totally had my doubts. :) 

0063. 5 things: Day 1

I've been horribly down lately, and I emailed my friend Tibby, who I love and adore. She suggested that I start a "five things" journal. Since I haven't used this in a while, I figure that posting my Five Things would be a good move. Five Things is where I psot 5 good things about my day, every day. This is day 1.

1. I managed to get my house picked up.
2. I spent time with Monkey.
3. I made delicious hamburgers that were just a tad on the spicy side. PK loved them.
4. PK came home early and wants to spend time together.
5. I didn't have to go to clinicals today.