Nerfer (my best friend in the world) just called me and asked how I do it. How do I get out of bed every day and not sleep through the alarm. How do I keep going to school every day? How do I deal with the crazy family and people I don't like at clinic.... and I didn't have an answer for her because I don't know.
I feel like a machine. I just do what I have to do to get by so that I don't lay in my bed like a goddamned vegetable and fall the fuck apart which is what I really want to do.
But my daughter depends on me. My husband depends on me. My parents depend on me. My classmates depend on me. My teachers depend on me (to make good grades). My patients depend on me. My crit partner depends on me. My MKR readers depend on me. My MKR reviewers depend on me. My goddamn characters depend on me. I can't fall apart. I CAN'T.
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